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L3 Week 28 – Not, As it Turns Out

…to eating the calories that is.

The simple reason being the numbers below. I can cope with a flat week, I expect them to some extent, it doesn’t devastate me – but only a couple of weeks after a 3-weeks off the diet? I should be losing and losing quite a lot.

Don’t get me wrong, eating the calories was fun and I did like the fact that I was able to go the pub or join in with a work celebration without making it a freebie. A freebie is often too open-ended whereas with this I at least got to have a little extra – a pint, a cupcake – but still have a fixed limit. That felt more in control.

However I am disappointed at not losing weight and I don’t really like the way it skews my behaviour. I’ve pushed myself to do a couple of extra long walks because I know I’ll be able to eat back the calories. I prefer to stick to my limit and do a regular length walk.

I’ll stick with MFP because I like it as a place to record my calories but I’ll stop recording my exercise there so that my calorie limit will be fixed.

Lost: 0lbs
Lost so far: 40lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.43lbs
Weight: 264.2lbs (18st 12lb)

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L3 Week 27 – Eating My Calories, or Not

I’ve started using myfitnesspal.com as my one-stop-shop for tracking my diet and exercise. It has a blog facility so I’ve written up my week there.

I didn’t want to completely abandon this blog though, so here’s a link.

Whether I carry on this way, revert to blogging here or only over there I’m not sure yet. I’ll try it for a few weeks and see how I feel.

Lost: 2.8lbs
Lost so far: 40lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.48lbs
Weight: 264.2lbs (18st 12lb)

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L3 Week 26 – More Less Would be Better

So after giving myself a stern talking-to last week I got back on track… for most of the week. It fell apart a bit at the weekend. However I didn’t completely lose the benefit of earlier in the week so I am at least still going down.

Lost: 1.6lbs
Lost so far: 37.2lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.43lbs
Weight: 267lbs (19st 1lb)

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Writing as Magic

Writing as Magic

So last week I talked about writing as exercise i.e. takes effort but done regularly reaps rewards. But exercise has a certain mechanical, mathematical even, rule to it – if I do an hour’s worth of exercise I will burn a certain amount of calories. I can do it grudgingly. I can be in a bad mood. I can be unmotivated and only just manage it, or I can skip along happily. Doesn’t matter, do the work and the calories burn and a certain amount of progress has been made toward the goal.

Writing isn’t like that.

Not quite anyhow. Because it’s creative the goal is to produce something worthwhile. Perhaps not straight away and we can be patient about the level of quality but not all writing is equal. I can spend an hour writing and produce nothing but pages of ‘ideas’ and ‘brainstorming’ that aren’t anything that can be shared or published. Or I can spend the same hour writing a story that someone might read and enjoy.

But it’s not guaranteed. This is the scary part. Working hard or consistently isn’t enough.

However I kinda sorta don’t worry about that. My attitude and experience is that creativity will flow. When or how inspiration will strike I don’t know. But it does so more if I’m actually writing and it can only be turned into something shareable if I am actually writing. And an idea in my head is wonderful but it’s only something I actually write and finish and can share that really counts.

So you sort of have to have faith in the magic of it. You sit down. You’re tired, uninspired, in a bad mood and feeling lacking in any talent or confidence. Any you start to write. Anything. Ideas. Thoughts about themes, characters, words, phrases, scenes, visual ideas, snippets of dialogue. For me it’s most often writing about writing and then asking myself questions – how does this work? where does he come from? how does she feel?

And I write for my allotted time and maybe, probably for the first few sessions, I have nothing. But eventually, if I keep at it, the magic happens, the spark comes from where-ever it comes from and ideas start to flow. Better than that I actually start to like what I’m writing.

But it’s not guaranteed. I have no idea how it really works just that I do certain things and then it happens. A few days later, particularly if I haven’t written in between times or am working on a new project, I may be back to feeling like I have nothing. So I start over with my brainstorming and journaling and just typing whatever comes into my head. And hope/believe/pray that it happens again.

Repeat the ritual, keep the faith, wait for the fire to fall.

Reliable but unpredictable – magic.

Writing Done this Week

Well I was back at work this week and predictably that has meant I haven’t written as often or as much. I’ve only written on three of the last seven days. Each time though I wrote for 30mins and overall I wrote about 1565 words. Most of that was in the form of ideas though i.e. the kind of rambling I described above.

I did write the first draft of an idea for the TWI Monday flash, but the deadline was Friday 9pm and since I didn’t write at all that day I missed it. I may come back to the idea but it was very slight and to be honest it’s not one of my favourites.

I wrote some thoughts on how to do a sequel/re-write of a story I wrote a few years ago. M. told me it was her favourite of mine and that I should write something similar. I’m not sure how so I wrote about that (see above re: questions)

This evening I wrote mostly brainstorming ideas for Web Writer’s September challenge – which is to write a 3,500 word story called “Hunting Season”. Actually a lot of my thoughts were about combining it with “airship” and another idea I’ve had called “the purpose of flight” – these may still be three stories but may take place in the same world.

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L3 Week 23-25 – Let’s Do It

OK. Three weeks behind on this and one simple reason. I’ve got bad news to report so I’ve put off sharing it. Writing the blog is like getting back on the diet. I put it off because I’ve gotten behind but sooner or later I know I have to get back to it. So here goes.

Week 23 – was a combination of an evening out and days with M. I expected this to be off the diet and given that the amount I put on, 5lbs, was not as much as it could have been.

Week 24 – was a continuation of being off the diet when I was supposed to be back on it. However I’d decided that since I was on holiday from work I’d be on holiday from the diet and get back on it when I went back to work. I put on another pound.

Week 25 – was a half-hearted attempt to get back on the diet but ended up with a weekend of pizza, no exercise and alcohol.

Lost: -10.4lbs
Lost so far: 35.6lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.4lbs
Weight: 268.6lbs (19st 3lb)

Obviously those are not great numbers but I’ll lose it back. I wouldn’t be writing this if I wasn’t already ready to get back on track.