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Witty Titles are sooo Last Week

Feeling a bit sluggish, headachy and vaguely ill today. Various theories about why including:

– changing sleep patterns
– less coffee consumption (I’m off work and at work I drink several cups a day)
– less alcohol consumption (though I’ve been doing that for a week or so)
– something I ate

anyway I feel a bit crappy. But not so much so that I’m not going to try to get some stuff i.e. writing, done. Yesterday I wrote 250 words in one of my uncompleted stories. Then deleted it all. I may try again today or I may do crits instead. I have a backlog of 6 stories since I decided to crit everything. The group politics continue – but as someone who’s been absent a while it’s pretty much just a spectator sport.

(just noticed my j key is acting up. Perhaps the keyboard needs a clean?)

If I do do crits I may need to check that I’m not being overly harsh. My guess is that feeling rough might make me tend to be less generous.

Had a weird dream last night. I wanted to capture the essence of it before I forget. There’s not enough there to be a story in itself but something about it might be worth using later. I was in this crowded place – I think it was a shelter or reception centre for hurricane victims. In the dream Del-Boy Trotter was my brother – which should make me Rodney but I think I was still just me. I was wandering around trying to find someone to be with. All the people I found who knew me, including Del-Boy, whether they knew me well or only vaguely, all rejected my pleas to hang out with them. It seems I was a burden, a hassle to them. In fact by the end of the dream I was still searching but hiding from those I’d already asked as some of them had mocked me for even asking. I felt very alone, and stupid, and of course, rejected. I think M. was one of the ones who rejected me too but I can’t be sure.

Anyway I woke up feeling the lingering emotions from that dream and the grogginess from whatever is wrong with me today.

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Chatting with God

I felt a chat with God was in order:

Me: Please forgive me God
God: Thank you for your request. What is your real name?
Me: Paul
God: What’s up, Paul.
Me: I’ve fucked up bad
God: That’s nice. I have clients.
Me: I came here to repent
God: Where are you going?
Me: if only I knew
God: Try it.
Me: try what?
God: It was your idea.
Me: no it was yours
God: Are you serious? Is it still mine anymore?
Me: yes
God: Aw.
Me: so are you going to help me or not?
God: Hmm. How can I help you?
Me: forgive me
God: I forgive you.

So that’s that sorted then.

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Relationships suck!

M. and I had a big fight. It’s probably one of the most significant we’ve had because we both felt like the other owed an apology.

Obviously I’m not going into details but it was bad.

Why can’t I get this right? All I want to do is be friends and be nice. My fear is that deep down I’m really this deeply unpleasant, uncaring, selfish guy. Only on tonight’s evidence – not so deep down. Scratch the surface and…

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Time to Write

Some thoughts on my writing efforts. Inspired by a couple things really. First, I did a little bit of writing last night along with re-reading some unfinished stories and ideas that I had lying around.

(Actually the ‘writing’ I did was purely mechanical. I had written a story that had gotten feedback that the point of view was wrong and I was implementing the first part of a fix which was to change the pov to first person. So I was changing “You” to “I” etc.)

Second I spent about an hour and a half reading Stephen King’s ‘On Writing’ this morning. If you’ve read it you’ll know that it’s in two parts – an autobiography part and the part on writing. Impatient as I am I skipped the second part. Which kind of relates to what I want to talk about.

Ok, let’s get serious for a second. Why do I want to write? Do I have any talent? Do I have the necessary work ethic? The problem with reading a book like On Writing is that I immediately score myself against the things he says you should have/do/be and usually I don’t fare well and end up feeling like I should just give up. See I’m lazy and my motivation for writing seems to be that I want people to say ‘hey that’s good’. King’s golden rule is read a lot, write a lot. By a lot he means 4-6 hours of reading a day and 1,000 words a day writing (however long that takes).

Now I have more free time than I’ve ever had in my life but 6 hours a day is hard to come by without giving up stuff. I talk to M. maybe 2 hours a day. A lot of my free time is in the evening and I’m tired from work. I just checked and my longest, unfinished, story is 2,700 words, which is actually a lot longer than I thought, but it didn’t come in one session.

So what I’m saying is that to make anything like the time King suggests would be an effort and I’m lazy. That’s problem 1.

Problem 2 is the motivation thing. King suggests that if the above schedule seems a lot it may be because you don’t really have the passion and talent for it. He suggests that once you get into it, it should be fun, you should love doing it whether or not anyone else reads it. Hmm. Well the news is not entirely bad here. The reading I did last night of my old stuff did stir something and I did enjoy what I’d written. I’d enjoyed the invention of it, the creativity.

King also talks about a defining moment for a writer when you read something bad that’s published and think ‘I could do better’. I have had that moment. It was ‘My Legendary Girlfriend’ by Mike Gayle. Now I must add quickly that this was not badly written but it was about things that I felt I could write about. A lot of times I would feel like I didn’t have enough experience of life to write anything worth reading. But My Legendary Girlfriend is about a 20-something guy living alone in his first flat with his first proper job. It takes place over a single weekend and it veers from mundane details of living in a flat to observations on pop culture and – hence the title – romance. Well those were all things I felt I could write about. It was a definite ‘I could do this’ moment.

Anyway, I’m choosing to feel hopeful. I’m deciding that if I try to write regularly and read more that the questions about motivation and talent will sort themselves out as I go.

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I thought I’d better blog. Just to keep in the pseudo-writing habit. Very early in my life I used to write diaries as a way to ‘keep my hand in with writing’ – though I think the quality of the writing is of questionable value. Nevertheless I think to blog is to better than to not.

So here I am.

I still haven’t written anything for AFO – crit or story. I will but it takes effort. I just listened to a podcast of Mark Kermode reviewing movies and he said that the real test of a reviewer is a bad movie not a good one. Now before I come across as up myself I don’t think the average AFO fare is ‘bad’ but I do tend to be hard to impress – not that my own writing is any better. All I’m really saying is that both crit- and story- writing are work and I haven’t had the energy or motivation for that for a while.

Still I have some time off work now and I’m hoping to write every day.

Of things SoF-ish I won a charity auction for a ‘low’ membership number and have a new custom title and avatar. So I’m back to being LatePaul, who is ‘only mostly dead’, and looks like this

which is actually a photo of me, taking with my phone, whilst whirling around quickly. I like that it’s abstract and no-one else’s is quite like it.

I watched Dogma last night. I was struck by how much it relies on dialogue. OK you’ve got a couple of interesting visual scenes but much of it is in very simply sets and there’s a lot of exposition. Characters with long, long speeches telling us the rules of heaven and hell etc.

Mass genocide is the most exhausting activity one can engage in, next to soccer.

Heh.

More soon…

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A Tale of Two Rom-Coms

Last Sunday I watched two very different Romantic Comedies. One was a TV movie that I’d recorded from Saturday night, the other a film I went to see at the cinema, a rare event in itself. I got to thinking that I could write up my thoughts as a kind of compare-and-contrast.

Which I will do but before diving straight into that, perhaps I should say, because I never really have yet, that I am a big fan of the romantic comedy as a film genre. It’s pure wish-fulfillment fantasy – which surely all the best movies are – but these particular types of fantasy, these specific wishes – to find someone, fall in love and live happily ever after (probably with an amusing but cute small dog) – are the ones that tap into some of my deeper desires.

I’ve always liked rom-coms and as a consequence have a fair share of really mediocre ones, as well as a few very good ones, on video and DVD. Rom-coms are hard to do well. You need two (at least two) likeable and fanciable actors. You need to be funny without losing the characters and romantic without descending in saccharine sentiment. Oh, and you can do all that and still find your leads lack that mysterious quality called chemistry.

Some of my favourites are

– When Harry met Sally
– The Philadelphia Story
– Clueless
– Say Anything
– Jerry MacGuire

This a becoming a bigger topic than I intended – probably a sign I should blog about this separately. Or at least let it get revealed as I write about other stuff.

Suffice to say I’m a rom-com fan and there was a time when a good saturday night in involved a bottle of wine, some chocolate and a soppy teen rom-com. A combination which fed my appetites and desires, both physical and emotional.

So anyway, back to the 2 movies from Sunday. The second of the two, the night out at the pictures one, was

A Lot like Love

I have avoided going out to the pictures for quite a while. Time was when it was my favourite escape. Go out, on my own, late at night and catch a late showing of whatever I fancied. And since I was on my own it didn’t matter if I was as self-indulgent as I cared to be in my choice of movie. But I’ve done that a lot less in the last few years – relative affluence – the ability to afford to buy/rent DVDs or watch them on TV made it easier to stay in. I live alone so I’m no longer escaping the company of others. Also in the last year especially my tolerance for the irritations of cinema-going – basically those who talk or keep their mobiles on – are a lot lower (or maybe people generally are worse in this respect I’m not sure).

But anyway, Sunday I was feeling a need to get out of the house so I left determining to watch whatever was the next film showing at the local multiplex. I expected it to either be Star Wars III or Batman Begins. Actually it was Batman Begins – but it was a wait of over an hour. So with that kind of wait I decided to go for A Lot like Love – a rom-com I’d heard good, but not amazing things about.

If I have avoided going out to the cinema I’ve also started to avoid rom-coms out of sheer desperation at how many mediocre ones I’ve seen – I simply don’t want to be disappointed again. My favourite ones I’ve seen in the last year or two – Two Weeks Notice, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days – have been good but not great. Part of this must be the age effect – the older you get, the more you’ve seen, the better a film has to be to stand out – but a large part too is, as I said above, that making good rom-coms, is hard – the really good ones are rare.

A Lot like Love is a a lot like When Harry met Sally with a little bit of Four Weddings and a Funeral thrown in. It’s the story of Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet getting together over a period of 7 years. To begin with it felt very formulaic – he’s a fairly straight-laced kinda guy, she’s a wild’n’crazy rock chick (their first encounter she pushes him into the loo for a bit of mile high action). But thankfully, as the years go by, that gets dropped and we simply have two people whose paths cross repeatedly. Like WHMS they’re usually involved with other people and so the timing is always off. Eventually of course they do end up together (it’s a rom-com remember – wishes to be fulfilled).

There were some things I really liked about this movie. It wasn’t completely formulaic. It wasn’t completely funny either and the set pieces felt a little forced (falling asleep naked in a national park for e.g.). Also Peet and Kutcher had some chemistry but it wasn’t exactly sparkling between them. They laughed a lot, giggled at each, smug smiles like they both thought they had the upper hand on the other. It felt a bit odd – like they knew they were in a movie. Odd and slightly off-putting.

There was however a theme of life not working out exactly as we plan, which was done with a fairly light hand. There’s a moment where Kutcher’s character has to decide between trying to make a go of it with Peet (at a stage where he’s really not sure how much is there between them) and his burgeoning career as a dot-com entrepreneur. He manages to convey a sense of confusion about what to do that’s genuinely affecting.

For an American movie, especially for an Ashton Kutcher movie, the humour is fairly subtle (naked nature expeditions notwithstanding). It’s interesting that the main character’s brother is deaf and we have some mis-translation between sign-language and English humour. A nod perhaps to Four Weddings and a Funeral.

In the end though the film doesn’t have that many memorable scenes and leaves the impression, like so many rom-coms, of being an amiable waste of time.

The Girl in the Cafe

This was the other film I saw last Sunday. It was actually written by Richard Curtis, he of the multiple matrimonies movie. Now here’s where I should own up to some slight misrepresentation. I’ve called this the tale of two rom-coms but actually this isn’t quite. It’s certainly in the style of one but that’s actually just the excuse, the delivery mechanism for a Very Important Message.

See I didn’t know this at the time but The Girl in the Cafe is actually about Making Poverty History. It’s as much a publicity stunt, for that admittedly noble cause, as Live8.

And I have to say it’s very effective. Very affective too.

Curtis uses all his skill at this sort of thing to produce something moving that’s not overly-sentimental – though some have criticised it for being overly simplistic.

Lawrence, a shy unassuming, but influential aide to the Chancellor of the Exchequor meets a girl in a cafe. Thus begins a gentle and tender romance, the backdrop of which is the G8 conference. Lawrence is played by Bill Nighy, who like that other Curtis leading man, Hugh Grant – effortlessly belies his real charm to portray a rather pathetic, though winning soul. A man who wanted to join the Rolling Stones in his youth but has ended up in a rather soul-destroying – if superficially high-powered – office job. Soul-destroying in part because he actually cares about the area of Third World Development but is constantly forced to compromise to get anything done.

The theme of this film is in part, what would we do if we were the men we wanted to be when we were young? It’s the same as the one in A Lot like Love but from the perspective of middle-age. I found it particularly affective because although I’m not quite that old, I do know that feeling of life not quite turning out as you planned, and realising you’re not quite the person you’d hoped you’d be.

That’s where Curtis is very clever. He uses the form and formulas of rom-com to get his message across. He does the gentle comedy, the engaging, if slightly implausible characters, the winning way in which we come to want them to find their wishes fulfilled in each other.

But they don’t.

Or at least it’s left open with the odds not looking good. What TGitC gives you instead is a different kind of resolution. Rom-coms normally use their tricks to make implausible romantic wishes seem plausible. Let’s face it the nerdy guy doesn’t usually end up with the beautiful girl who recognises his slightly hidden good heart. And the shy retiring guy is shy for a reason. Well-done rom-coms allow us to look past the reasons why these people either wouldn’t get together in the first place or why they might not last.

Curtis actually has Kelly MacDonald – the ‘girl’ – say that β€œshe can’t honestly see a future for [her and Nighy]”. I mean that’s bursting the exact bubble you’re supposed to be blowing. That’s destroying the illusion that you want to create.

Except that’s not the illusion Curtis wants to create. The fantasy he wants to make plausible, the wishes he wants to fulfill are the ones about Feeding the World and Making Poverty History. So that when he has Nighy talk about how it’s better to compromise on the lesser domestic stuff and really go for the life-and-death poverty issues – he’s mirroring that by compromising the romantic relationship in order to make the point about Stuff that Matters.

It’s effective. Nighy and MacDonald both give brilliant, subtle performances. It’s implausible that someone as powerful as Nighy is not have more ability with people. It’s implausible that someone with MacDonald’s inexperience and background be so articulate in the face of world leaders. And yet we never doubt them. The tone of the film is perfectly judged. It’s bitter-sweet because we’d never accept an out and out happy-ever-after when we’re talking of millions dying. And yet it is amusing, warm and above all hopeful.

Because in the end the wish that we want fulfilled most of all is that we can make a difference.

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So that PGL thing…

So, let’s wrap up the whole PGL 3 thing (or PGL as a whole as it turns out) – given how much of this blog so far has been devoted to that.

(I just realised it’ll be one year tomorrow when I first posted on PGL 3.)

PGL 2

I notice from last year’s entries that I mentioned PGL 2 coming out on DVD but I didn’t comment when I finally got hold of it. I bought the box set that contains the TV show and the movie.

So it was another lack-lustre movie. It was another coming-of-age tale starring Shia LaBeouf as a war-reenactor highschool kid and his various struggles with family, friends and the girl he likes.

Actually the story had real potential and Shia in particular is a likeable and engaging lead. I think the problem – or at least the problem as the show portrayed it – was that there was a conflict between whether they cut it as a comedy or a heart-warming family drama (movie-of-the-week style).

The TV show was entertaining – perhaps more so than PGL 1 – but largely in a train wreck kinda way. This time they picked a writer winner and a director winner – where the director winner was a winning team of 2 guys. They were made the bad guys of the TV show – passive aggressive, non-communicative, changing things on the fly, etc. How much was true and how much was the show is hard to say – but it was interesting to watch.

But, I dunno, there’s a real disappointment for me that we haven’t had a really good movie come out of PGL yet.

PGL 3

Well things changed quite a bit this time. First, HBO had dropped the TV show but Bravo picked it up. Which actually meant 13 hour-long eps vs however many 30minute ones. The downside was that this is a less popular network and it’s been harder to find episodes online (I’m not in the US). So what I’ve gathered about the show this time has been from reading the online blogs and watching a couple of the shows only.

So they went genre this time – specifically horror. It was a very definite decision to try to get a more commercially successful movie. Let’s face it they need a hit and a low-budget horror movie (or other niche market) is perhaps easier to target. So they had Wes Craven as an executive producer – which means he appears as part of the selection panel in the early eps. His company bought Wild Card – which means it might get made into a half-decent movie.

Another change was that this time Miramax – who put up the movie budget – insisted that their guys do the day to day producing. Which means no Jeff Baliss but instead two guys from Dimension – Miramax’s horror production company. One side effect of which is why Feast got chosen. They basically said that they wouldn’t work on either of the other two finalist scripts. This led to a huge argument with Matt Damon apparently.

Partly in reaction to this, Damon and the others pushed through the choice of director Jon Gulager – despite a terrible interview. His obvious talents in filmmaking are somewhat let down by his interpersonal skills. Though it’s interesting that the blogs consistently praised him in reaction to the slating he was apparently getting on the show.

I guess the TV guys have to make a ‘story’ of it and Jon was the fallguy for that.

Anyway the TV show got cancelled 9 eps in due to bad ratings. The movie apparently is pretty good and they’re preparing a release in December.

So maybe the choice was always between good movie and good TV.

Oh and even if the movie is successful – Gulager comes from a Hollywood family. His father’s an actor, his friends and family are all in the business. So PGL’s idealistic goal of helping an outsider break into Hollywood is exactly what’s going on here.

So the PGL experiment is probably over. Even if Feast makes money it probably won’t bring the show back. If Feast is a surprise mega-hit – the next Blair Witch – then *maybe* we’ll get more PGL – maybe not.

Still – kinda fun while it lasted.

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Back Again

So I’m back again. Nothing for quite a while except to test RSS feeds.

I was thinking about it yesterday and decided that I should start blogging again.

Stuff I can think to write of

o TV shows – no Buffy or Angel or Firefly – but Tim Minear has a new show

o movies – especially Serenity when it comes out

o life in general

o writing

o stuff

Well anyway there are things I have to say – inconsequential as they may turn out to be – and here’s my place for saying them.

Oh I could do an update on PGL – only fair really.

Also since last I did this I’ve upgraded to Tiger (OS X 10.4) – not that I intend to blog about that – but I have pretty much wiped and re-installed my OS, so I could probably do with downloading a client again.

See you in a bit…

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And the winner is…

Feast

What the…?

I genuinely don’t get it. It’s not only the weakest script – IMHO of course! – but almost certainly the hardest to make on the budget. Up til now I’ve been cynical about the whole ‘they’re setting them up for failure cos it’s better TV’ but it makes you wonder.

Mind you – in a slightly less cynical way – they DO have to make the TV show watchable and I guess the whole point of making this competition about genre was to be able to show some stuff we’ve not seen in PGL 1 or 2. And of the 3, FEAST has the most of that I suppose.

What’s slightly suspicious is that I was hearing rumours on the misc.writers.screenplay newsgroup that it “was going to win” before even the top 6 were chosen. The writing pair are in the business – but not as writers yet. So maybe there was some bias – or at least the knowledge about who the judges favoured was an open secret.

Oh well. Could still be fun.

In another month or so they actually start to make the movie, I think the show airs in the US in Jan.

Now I’ll have to find something else to discuss here.

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PGL3 – My final verdict

So my final decision is Wildcard No surprises there then, it was my favourite before and they haven’t done anything to ruin it. If anything it’s slightly better.

Both Feast and Does Anyone… have improved too – especially the later, and to be honest there’s potential for an enjoyable movie from all 3 – in the end it was more a question of the kind of story I’d enjoy than quality per se. I’ve a hunch the PGL team might pick Does Anyone… Feast still seems too expensive – although what do I know?

Anyway – off to check the site – official results should be up.