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L3 Week 28 – Not, As it Turns Out

…to eating the calories that is.

The simple reason being the numbers below. I can cope with a flat week, I expect them to some extent, it doesn’t devastate me – but only a couple of weeks after a 3-weeks off the diet? I should be losing and losing quite a lot.

Don’t get me wrong, eating the calories was fun and I did like the fact that I was able to go the pub or join in with a work celebration without making it a freebie. A freebie is often too open-ended whereas with this I at least got to have a little extra – a pint, a cupcake – but still have a fixed limit. That felt more in control.

However I am disappointed at not losing weight and I don’t really like the way it skews my behaviour. I’ve pushed myself to do a couple of extra long walks because I know I’ll be able to eat back the calories. I prefer to stick to my limit and do a regular length walk.

I’ll stick with MFP because I like it as a place to record my calories but I’ll stop recording my exercise there so that my calorie limit will be fixed.

Lost: 0lbs
Lost so far: 40lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.43lbs
Weight: 264.2lbs (18st 12lb)

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L3 Week 27 – Eating My Calories, or Not

I’ve started using myfitnesspal.com as my one-stop-shop for tracking my diet and exercise. It has a blog facility so I’ve written up my week there.

I didn’t want to completely abandon this blog though, so here’s a link.

Whether I carry on this way, revert to blogging here or only over there I’m not sure yet. I’ll try it for a few weeks and see how I feel.

Lost: 2.8lbs
Lost so far: 40lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.48lbs
Weight: 264.2lbs (18st 12lb)

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L3 Week 26 – More Less Would be Better

So after giving myself a stern talking-to last week I got back on track… for most of the week. It fell apart a bit at the weekend. However I didn’t completely lose the benefit of earlier in the week so I am at least still going down.

Lost: 1.6lbs
Lost so far: 37.2lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.43lbs
Weight: 267lbs (19st 1lb)

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Writing as Magic

Writing as Magic

So last week I talked about writing as exercise i.e. takes effort but done regularly reaps rewards. But exercise has a certain mechanical, mathematical even, rule to it – if I do an hour’s worth of exercise I will burn a certain amount of calories. I can do it grudgingly. I can be in a bad mood. I can be unmotivated and only just manage it, or I can skip along happily. Doesn’t matter, do the work and the calories burn and a certain amount of progress has been made toward the goal.

Writing isn’t like that.

Not quite anyhow. Because it’s creative the goal is to produce something worthwhile. Perhaps not straight away and we can be patient about the level of quality but not all writing is equal. I can spend an hour writing and produce nothing but pages of ‘ideas’ and ‘brainstorming’ that aren’t anything that can be shared or published. Or I can spend the same hour writing a story that someone might read and enjoy.

But it’s not guaranteed. This is the scary part. Working hard or consistently isn’t enough.

However I kinda sorta don’t worry about that. My attitude and experience is that creativity will flow. When or how inspiration will strike I don’t know. But it does so more if I’m actually writing and it can only be turned into something shareable if I am actually writing. And an idea in my head is wonderful but it’s only something I actually write and finish and can share that really counts.

So you sort of have to have faith in the magic of it. You sit down. You’re tired, uninspired, in a bad mood and feeling lacking in any talent or confidence. Any you start to write. Anything. Ideas. Thoughts about themes, characters, words, phrases, scenes, visual ideas, snippets of dialogue. For me it’s most often writing about writing and then asking myself questions – how does this work? where does he come from? how does she feel?

And I write for my allotted time and maybe, probably for the first few sessions, I have nothing. But eventually, if I keep at it, the magic happens, the spark comes from where-ever it comes from and ideas start to flow. Better than that I actually start to like what I’m writing.

But it’s not guaranteed. I have no idea how it really works just that I do certain things and then it happens. A few days later, particularly if I haven’t written in between times or am working on a new project, I may be back to feeling like I have nothing. So I start over with my brainstorming and journaling and just typing whatever comes into my head. And hope/believe/pray that it happens again.

Repeat the ritual, keep the faith, wait for the fire to fall.

Reliable but unpredictable – magic.

Writing Done this Week

Well I was back at work this week and predictably that has meant I haven’t written as often or as much. I’ve only written on three of the last seven days. Each time though I wrote for 30mins and overall I wrote about 1565 words. Most of that was in the form of ideas though i.e. the kind of rambling I described above.

I did write the first draft of an idea for the TWI Monday flash, but the deadline was Friday 9pm and since I didn’t write at all that day I missed it. I may come back to the idea but it was very slight and to be honest it’s not one of my favourites.

I wrote some thoughts on how to do a sequel/re-write of a story I wrote a few years ago. M. told me it was her favourite of mine and that I should write something similar. I’m not sure how so I wrote about that (see above re: questions)

This evening I wrote mostly brainstorming ideas for Web Writer’s September challenge – which is to write a 3,500 word story called “Hunting Season”. Actually a lot of my thoughts were about combining it with “airship” and another idea I’ve had called “the purpose of flight” – these may still be three stories but may take place in the same world.

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L3 Week 23-25 – Let’s Do It

OK. Three weeks behind on this and one simple reason. I’ve got bad news to report so I’ve put off sharing it. Writing the blog is like getting back on the diet. I put it off because I’ve gotten behind but sooner or later I know I have to get back to it. So here goes.

Week 23 – was a combination of an evening out and days with M. I expected this to be off the diet and given that the amount I put on, 5lbs, was not as much as it could have been.

Week 24 – was a continuation of being off the diet when I was supposed to be back on it. However I’d decided that since I was on holiday from work I’d be on holiday from the diet and get back on it when I went back to work. I put on another pound.

Week 25 – was a half-hearted attempt to get back on the diet but ended up with a weekend of pizza, no exercise and alcohol.

Lost: -10.4lbs
Lost so far: 35.6lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 1.4lbs
Weight: 268.6lbs (19st 3lb)

Obviously those are not great numbers but I’ll lose it back. I wouldn’t be writing this if I wasn’t already ready to get back on track.

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Writing as Exercise

As of today, I’m instituting a new weekly blog post about writing. Just as I always do an L3 post on a Monday[1] I’m now going to do a post about writing on a Wednesday. Since I couldn’t think of a name that I didn’t hate I’m not going to give it one. It’ll simply be the weekly writing post.

The idea will be to give myself a sense of accountability and progress. I can update you on my current projects and any insights into the writing per se.

Writing as Exercise

I’m doing this because I have started writing again. And I’ve started writing again on the basis that writing is like exercise. In that:

  • it’s hard to face doing when you haven’t done it for a while
  • it’s always a little hard to get going but enjoyable when you do
  • still it’s always going to be easier not to bother
  • but you do it because you want the long term results
  • doing it regularly, possibly every day, is a good idea
  • doing it every day makes it easier to get started
  • doing it every day makes it more effective
  • progress is gradual but real

Current Projects

Here’s a list of things I’ve been working on. I’m not going to give too much details here and may even resort to code names rather than titles (I’m a bit weird about talking about stuff that’s still in the early stages) and it’s not my intention to discuss specifics or give excerpts or anything like that. I mostly want to track progress.

TWI Monday FlashThe Write Idea is a writing forum I’m part of and they run a weekly flash fiction competition (250 words). I wrote a piece called “Looking for the Other Aardvark” about Noah. The prompt (that I used) was “it’s going to rain”. I got a couple of votes. There were I think 6 entries overall and the winner scored 4.

Web Writers August Challenge – This is an email list I’m part of. Yesterday I wrote a ~650word story on a theme of a change of attitude/latitude. Today I re-wrote it and it came to 999words. I was quite happy with the results even though I got latitude and longitude the wrong way round. D’oh!

The Young Poisoners Club – this is a story I submitted to an online competition I was part of in 2008. It’s the only one of several such competitions where I’ve completed each round. Anyway, when I started about a week and a half ago thinking about writing again at first I had no inspiration. So I looked at re-writing something and this was it. Sent it to Web Writers and got some nice feedback but realised I’d done little more than tweak it when it needs some structural changes. I may look at making it a play.

The Magic Witch – oh now this is a semi-mythical piece of work. I started it in 2003 and have gone back to it a couple of times but never managed to finish it. It’s a children’s story. In its current form it has, or had until a few days ago, a beginning, an ending and a part in the middle with the words “MISSING MIDSECTION” in bold. I’ve now written some notes sketching out the missing midsection. All I have to do now is write it.

Radio play – I’ve had this idea that I’d like to write a radio play. Aside from possibly converting YPC above I scribbled down an idea called “airship“. No more than notes on an idea for a sort of theme and a character.

World/Feeling – this is super-vague. If I had to describe my own work then I’d say that most of my stories are cute ideas or twist-in-the-tail stories. What I’d like to be able to do is create a sense of a world, a character or just a tone. Like I said, vague.

Well that was quite a lot. Mind you that’s almost two weeks’ worth and I’ve been on holiday. Back to work tomorrow but I do intend to still write every day.

[1]I know, I know. I’m going to do a catch-up, possibly tomorrow.
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L3 Week 22 – Back Down, Ready For the Up Again?

Well, to within a rounding error on the nearest pound, I am back where I was two weeks ago. Which puts me at an average loss of just over 2lb a week for the last three weeks. Which is good going.

See how I’m taking the longer view, you’ve got to do that, dieting is a long game. Keep that in mind.

I have a decision to make about how I behave for the next week. See this week is potentially a difficult one to lose weight in. Tomorrow I have a games night with a few friends that traditionally involves beer and fish and chips. Then from Wednesday through to Sunday I’ll be staying with M. This will probably involve a few meals out and probably not as much exercise as I normally get.

Part of me would really like to try to at least maintain this week’s weight. Another part of me thinks that whatever I gain, like last week, and like week 17, I’ll lose again pretty quickly. This is a fairly rare co-incidence of two events – a night out or a few days away happens every few weeks, but not both together – and whatever I try to do to maintain a loss may well end up negatively affecting my time with M. and I don’t want that. The only problem is that I don’t want to feel like I’m making excuses and this is the beginning of a slide into eventually giving up. So the real test is whether I get back down to it the following week.

Lost: 3lbs
Lost so far: 45lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 2.05lbs
Weight: 259.2lbs (18st 7lb)

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L3 Week 21 – Life, and Other Interruptions to Dieting

Before I typed up last week’s results, whilst I was still out on my walk in fact I got a rather worrying phonecall. My dad had had a heart attack. He’s fine, they got him to hospital and did an angioplasty and inserted a stent and he’s doing well.

But obviously it was a worrying for a time there. Also, I was due to go up for the Family Reunion (basically a meal out at a hotel) anyway – which I did, and it was nice to see dad and see he was doing ok.

At first I tried to tell myself that this is the sort of thing where I need to continue the diet because if I let these sort of “events” throw me off course then it’s a slippery slope and there’s always something to worry about (hopefully not many so major though). Even knowing that though, and I think knowing that I’d be going home and having basically a freebie weekend anyway meant that I sort of gave up really. I didn’t even weigh myself yesterday as I’d spent the day travelling back and was too tired to want to think about the consequence of weighing (i.e. writing this)

So I weighed myself this morning and, all-in-all, it’s not so bad. I have put weight back on, but I’m still 3stone down.

But I do need to get back on the straight and narrow. Particularly since in a week’s time I’ve got a night out followed by a week spent with M. If I make the whole week a freebie I won’t lose weight, but I haven’t traditionally been great at staying sensible whilst going to these social things. But it’s unlikely that’ll I’ll have two things together like this for a while, so I may just take the hit and start again the week after.

We’ll see. Overall I am still determined that L3 will be a success but it’s about a downward long term trend and that sometimes means being a little relaxed about individual weeks.

Lost: -1.5lbs
Lost so far: 42lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 2.0lbs
Weight: 262.2lbs (18st 10lb)

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L3 Week 20 – When 3 is Really 4

So the big headline is that I’ve passed another milestone, 3stone lost, finally.

Why finally? Because it feels like I should have lost it earlier. But to some extent that feeling is bogus. When I did Lesamy I weighed myself in kg. When I did Less is More I’d switched to lbs. So it’s hard for me to get a feel for where I am relative to where I once was. However one measure that sticks in the mind is “stones lost” because those are and were the milestone points.

So when over the last few weeks I seemed to be bumping along at just under 3stone lost I was somewhat frustrated because I knew that in Lesamy I’d gotten to 4stone down reasonably quickly and didn’t start bumping along at the same weight until about 6-6 1/2 stone down.

But then I made a graph to compare the relative losses and for a fair-ish comparison I started the graph at the point in Lesamy roughly equivalent to where I was when I started L3. Which was already 1stone down from my heaviest known weight i.e. 3stone is really 4stone down.

As you can see this time around (blue line) I am still a bit higher than Lesamy (orange) but based on my current average loss (purple) I would beat that, given that I’ll probably slow down but hopefully still maintain my target (green).

The numbers are quite impressive this week, partly I think due to a burst of hot weather and consequent dehydration after my walk.

Lost: 6.8lbs
Lost so far: 45.4lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 2.27lbs
Weight: 258.8lbs (18st 7lb)

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L3 Week 19 – Dangerous Times

Another week of gain. Not unexpected since I had three official freebies and one off-the-reservation Sunday. A few salient remarks:

I really need to manage the freebies better. Sometimes I’ll have a string of with-other-people events that I can’t/don’t want to completely avoid, so I need to be able to eat and drink sensibly because I can’t declare them all a freebie.

This is where it gets dangerous. Because what could start to happen is that I have a few weeks of losses cancelled by gains and basically bouncing along around the same weight. And that in turn leads to disillusionment which leads to stopping.

BUT I am determined not to give up this time. Which means I need to be determined to getting back to losing more consistently.

Lost: -1.2lbs
Lost so far: 38.6lbs
Average Weekly Loss: 2.03lbs
Weight: 265.6lbs (19st)