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OK this wasn’t the week where people found out for the first time, as I’ve told people and people have noticed, but it was the week where I started being open about it. I decided that rather than carry on being coy I’d had the satisfaction of the unprompted mention of me losing weight and I’d now not deliberately go out of my way to avoid talking about being on a diet (like not really giving a good reason why I didn’t want to go to the pub when I was already going out that night). So I did and it lead to a few conversations and nice comments including:

• the lady who said “I hope you don’t mind me saying but you’ve lost a heck of a lot of weight”
• the guy who told me he’d noticed but wanted to wait until he was sure I wasn’t ill or something
• the woman who used to work with us and came into the office having not seen me for 6 months and was amazed that a) I wasn’t doing some kind of program and b) wasn’t on the front of some slimming magazine
• my co-worker who was not only impressed that I had lost weight but was (more) impressed that I was cooking properly

So that was all nice. However, typically perhaps, it’s also the week where I had an evening at the pub that was quite a large freebie in terms of calories. I’ve still ended up losing weight so I’m not that bothered but I should have held back a bit more, even for a freebie. I also got warned that I shouldn’t lose too much weight as some women aren’t into skinny men. I shall bear this in mind…

Anyway this week’s numbers are:

Weekly loss: 0.3kg (0.7lb)
Total loss: 37.3kg (82.2lb or 5st 12lb)
To target: 30.6kg (67.5lb or 4st 11lb)
Current weight: 106.8kg (235lb or 16st 11lb)

Still a little shy of having lost 6 stone – but I should get there by next week.

I had another reckless weekend – or reckless bank holiday monday anyway.  Which means I suppose I should be grateful that I lost any weight at all. In fact though I did it was largely due to when I weighed myself – which was the ‘usual’ time – but before I’d really pigged out. I know that this had an impact because I weighed myself the next day and had put on quite a lot.

Things have gotten a little slack lately. Freebies being opportunities to pig out rather than sensible treats. Having multiple freebies in one week. Using the stepper to ‘earn’ lots of extra calories. Not doing my exercises. All of which would be ok but I need to be a bit stricter because I’m still only just over half way through and if I’ve slipped this much so far I can’t let it slip too much further.

It’s my birthday next week which involves freebie-ness so after that I think I’ll make a deliberate effort to reel in the slackness and be a bit of more of the obsessive I used to be about Lesamy.

One of the things that I don’t consider slackness is weighing myself more than once a week. The only reason not to do that was de-motivation and whilst it can do that, I am pretty much going to stick with this regardless. Only the official monday weighing counts but the fact I can know day to day where I’m at is ok so long as I don’t get too hung up on it. It helps me to know for instance that I have now lost all that extra weight I put on after monday.

Oh and whilst it makes no difference to the diet per se, one piece of slackness I’ll aim to reform on is not updating this blog on Monday.

Weekly loss: 0.3kg (0.7lb)
Total loss: 35.2kg (77.2lb or 5st 7lb)
To target: 32.7kg (72.1lb or 5st 2lb)
Current weight: 108.9kg (240lb or 17st 2lb)

One of the things I try to do with this blog is strike the right balance between honesty and optimism. After all I started blogging about this as part of a self-encouragement effort. So perhaps at times I play down some of the issues with weight-loss. Partly that’s because I have been surprised at my own success. However, even given that, there is something that needs to said, and said clearly.

Losing weight is hard.

As in not easy. As in it takes work, effort. It takes time so if nothing else it require persistence. But whilst I once thought of that as “Motorway Driving” (easy but boring) I’m not sure I still do. It’s more like a long walk (of which I’m now very familiar due to Lesamy) – not difficult but requiring persistent effort.

I’m mentioning this because I’ve been finding it tough. Last week I had my “reckless weekend” and this week I’ve had a slightly ill-thought-out evening. What these are euphemisms for are me getting fed up and binging. This has included real comfort eating, in the sense of eating as an “escape” from  certain worries in the same way as drinking can be sometimes.

This is tough because having realised that I’ve got further to go in terms of time than I’ve come – possibly as much as twice as long – actually brings me down to earth a bit. Up until now I haven’t felt like I won’t make it eventually. I’ve had my freebies and my weeks where loss has been slow, or even gone the wrong way. I’ve had my whinges and things that have gotten me down – colleagues that don’t notice, my own apparent inability to “see” the loss etc – but underneath there’s been a bedrock of determination to keep going. I have to admit that has now been shaken.

All these battles are psychological. In the end it is about keeping going. It’s about keeping going for a long time. It’s about getting going again when you do slip. These have been areas I’ve not traditionally been known for being strong in. I feel like it would help if I had a clearer idea as to why I’m doing this. So far my best answer to that is that I want the sense of achievement of making my goal. Things like health benefits are secondary at best and as I’ve discussed before could probably be achieved without focussing on weight – I could throw out my scales and still get fit.

So anyway, that’s some “honesty” for you. To balance it here’s some optimism. First today I had the second person tell me that they’d noticed I’d lost weight. Second I have now lost the weight I put back on and a little more. (There was some doubt over my scales but I changed the battery and it seems to be right.)

Weekly loss: 2kg (4.4lb)
Total loss: 34.9kg (76.9lb or 5st 6lb)
To target: 33kg (72.7lb or 5st 2lb)
Number of people who’ve noticed without being told: 2
Current weight: 109.2kg (240lb or 17st 2lb)

It’s hard – but I intend to keep going – to do that I need to recognise, celebrate even, all the positives.

This is a momentous day, a day foretold, a day long yearned for and yet which was often thought might never arrive…

It didn’t start so well.

As you may remember when I first started Lesamy I didn’t have specific goals. I had a 10% milestone and a “see what happens next” idea. I then quickly became focussed on Christmas and looking thinner for my family then. The 10% milestone went by and it was obvious that it was going to take longer to get to a weight where I looked – how I thought I wanted to look.

Anyway at some point 12 stone emerged as my overall target. It was that because a) it put me in a “normal” range for BMI and b) I’d been that weight before at 21. It’s not like I set it at 10 stone, the weight I was when I was 18. I was thinking that over a long-ish timeframe that was realistic.

That long-ish timeframe was, in my mind, sometime this summer. However it became obvious that it would take longer than that and then I realised it might take up to a year. As you know I passed the half-year mark a week before I passed half-way to my target. And the rate of weight-loss has slowed. Prior to Christmas I was averaging 3.3lbs a week. Since Christmas I’ve averaged just over 2.

When I realised these were the figures last night, I started to think about doing some calculations. I think the rate will probably slow a little more over time but I don’t know how much. So I went for a few options. Here’s my results:

So my most optimistic prediction is that I’ll hit my target just before Christmas, my most pessimistic is next August. Almost certainly it’ll be over 18 months before I hit 12 stone. The final column(s) were just to see what my weight would be if I took whatever I end up at 1 year as being a target to maintain at.

So these figures were a bit of a shock. However I told myself two things

• it took twenty years to get from 12 to 22+ stone, taking two to get back is not unreasonable
• it’s more likely to stay off if it comes off at that rate

Still I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little down about it. Anyway I got up from my desk, I went into the kitchen to get a coffee and met S., a colleague there.

“Hi Paul. You’ve lost weight” he said.

“I have,” I said

“Well done”

“Thanks”

That was all that was said on the topic but it made my day. Someone noticed!